To Jec,
First thing of all I wanna say sorry for everything I have done to you and to your new love. I am sorry I get paranoid those times I was madly in love with you. Haha still remember how I became a begging dog? I got ashamed now haha that was naahhh -- never mind. Hmm I just wanted to say everything here in my last letter and blog for you (About Us). So, I never thought we're already ended up this way, you know in the past few months I am still dreaming about you, thinking about you. And I guess my love for you had never reached the finish line. Sounds terrible but yeah I still and will but I dunno how long it would be.
Thank you for everything, love, care, understandings, hugs, and all those times you always made my day. Memories together, plans that we shared, dreams we talked together, achievements in our lives in the nearer future together. Yeah maybe, just maybe we're really not meant to be. I accepted that. Sorry for being a dramatic again but I swear to hell this will be the last, I promise. Sorry for blaming you for everything that happened to us knowing I was the big damn mistake to our entire relationship. That I was the one who's done all the mistakes ended up of what we are and where we are now. I was a pathetic heartless monster coz I never ever understand you.
I know you're in a good hands now, and I know you are almost a steps to your goal. Please don't let any other girl after me experienced what I've got. If you can handle everything, hold everything even if there is the possible way that you're gonna walk away with nothing. Try to take a risk even once in the name of love of your life, you didn't know how it feels great after that. Try not to tempted by women around you. Temptation is seriously not a big weakness, and I am pretty sure with that. You're going to hurt me if you did the same thing to others. I wasn't the right girl for you coz I can't handle a hard situation than you does. I can't change you. You are really a damn hard headed human than I was hahaha . . But that's the way I Loved You. You caused me too much pain that I guess isn't enough for all the troubles I caused you, I physically and emotionally hurt you.
Now that I've moved on. I only wish you some things: I am looking forward to see you successful as you wanted to be. I hope that one day we're going to see each other no pains no hates no awkwardness between us. I hope we stay friends. I want you to be my bestfriend FOR REAL please? I want to met your girlfriend/fiancee personally and I promise that I am not going to do anything to harm her. I wish you a better a very good life, a better health. I wish you a super mega great super long lasting love and relationship :)
- Jezzie
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