"A Letter From A Woman Who Really Loved You"

To Jec,

            First thing of all I wanna say sorry for everything I have done to you and to your new love. I am sorry I get paranoid those times I was madly in love with you. Haha still remember how I became a begging dog? I got ashamed now haha that was naahhh -- never mind. Hmm I just wanted to say everything here in my last letter and blog for you (About Us). So, I never thought we're already ended up this way, you know in the past few months I am still dreaming about you, thinking about you. And I guess my love for you had never reached the finish line. Sounds terrible but yeah I still and will but I dunno how long it would be.

            Thank you for everything, love, care, understandings, hugs, and all those times you always made my day. Memories together, plans that we shared, dreams we talked together, achievements in our lives in the nearer future together. Yeah maybe, just maybe we're really not meant to be. I accepted that. Sorry for being a dramatic again but I swear to hell this will be the last, I promise. Sorry for blaming you for everything that happened to us knowing I was the big damn mistake to our entire relationship. That I was the one who's done all the mistakes ended up of what we are and where we are now. I was a pathetic heartless monster coz I never ever understand you.

         

         I know you're in a good hands now, and I know you are almost a steps to your goal. Please don't let any other girl after me experienced what I've got. If you can handle everything, hold everything even if there is the possible way that you're gonna walk away with nothing. Try to take a risk even once in the name of love of your life, you didn't know how it feels great after that. Try not to tempted by women around you. Temptation is seriously not a big weakness, and I am pretty sure with that. You're going to hurt me if you did the same thing to others. I wasn't the right girl for you coz I can't handle a hard situation than you does. I can't change you. You are really a damn hard headed human than I was hahaha . . But that's the way I Loved You. You caused me too much pain that I guess isn't enough for all the troubles I caused you, I physically and emotionally hurt you.

       Now that I've moved on. I only wish you some things: I am looking forward to see you successful as you wanted to be. I hope that one day we're going to see each other no pains no hates no awkwardness between us. I hope we stay friends. I want you to be my bestfriend FOR REAL please? I want to met your girlfriend/fiancee personally and I promise that I am not going to do anything to harm her. I wish you a better a very good life, a better health. I wish you a super mega great super long lasting love and relationship :)

                                                                                                                                       - Jezzie

         

The Struggle Of Our Love Has Come

February last year, you met a woman whom you think were better than me. (And I really guess so.) The one whom you're going to spend the rest of your life with started last year. I am not blaming you why all of this happened. Yeah, it hurts. But it's all about love and decision.

How I Appreciate Your Love For Me

Yeah it wasn't obvious but uhh I appreciate all the little things you've done for me. And yeah how you loved me truly. Maybe I didn't show it and I'm sorry for that .. You understand me (i know not all the time) but still thank you so much for being there for me . . Thank you coz for the very first time in my life, I felt being loved even just for a short time. Thank you coz I can always count on you. Thank you for all those sweet memories I am going to treasure all my life.

Our Small Arguments That Always Ending Up Break Ups.

Haha all were still fresh . . Thinking about how we fight for a simple little things. Remember how I get mad before? How I demand things to you? How I disgust for every little thing you do, (scratch that, I well appreciate it and "kilig to the bones inside" Haha pretending that how annoying are you but I found it really cute. That's the first thing I miss about you . .

The Very First Gift I've Ever Received From You

On our FIRST ANNIVERSARY December 24, 2012: You gave me a ring, and I considered it as a most precious gift I ever had.

Our Very First Picture

I don't know if you can remember this. But it was taken at Masuso Spring Resort, if I am not mistaken this is the first time we did escaped with friends for 3 days I guess? Nah, Whatever it always makes me smile every time I am thinking about it.

Remembering Our First Kiss

I don't know if you still remember my very great memory with you. Our first kiss, actually my first kiss. Yeah I got it from you.

The Firts Time I Saw You

Lol. Yeah I admit were nothing to me at the very first day I met you. But I never thought that one of those days, you'll complete my world. I don't understand but I feel something weird that time and uhh I guess that was the memorable day ever. Sorry for my bad attitude that time but it was really the real me BEFORE.